Looking Back!

"I want to do what I really want to do"...
If that was possible though...

I sometimes feel as I was a part of a story written somewhere, known to most except my own self and if I was doing something or everything for someone or something.

I feel as if I can never raise myself to normality whenever my thoughts are scattered, but I do always rise and my story never stops to unfold, no not even for me.

I wonder what if I knew what would be in-store in the next chapter or in the next page of the book of my life, what if I knew every decision or step I took was right or wrong. But then what good would good be if there was no bad, there would be no happiness if no1's sad...

When I was young the only thing that gave me happiness was to dip a cookie in milk and bite it before it fell into the glass of hot milk. I wonder how life would've been if I just needed to do what I really wanna do, fool around with cookies, fly a kite from the rooftop, play all day long. What if I knew who I was.

I wish life would have been simple, I neva had 2 compromise something for something. I wish I never had 2 learn, study and pretend, if only someone could change the definition of success and earth was content living would have been living.

The only thing one needs, works for and dies in the dream of obtaining is happiness and I have never seen ne1 who is content with what is available or what is with you.

I wish I had magical powers, I just wish I could make some difference to someone...

Time never stops for anyone but why is it that I never feel it passing by me, waving at me and signaling to me telling me to make sure I do something that I really wanna do...

"I want to do what I really want to do"...
If that was possible though...