Love Hurts!

Love is the most beautiful thing that can happen in one's life.

Its a blessing, nurture it, relish it, reciprocate it else it will hurt you so much that it will become a bane for your existence.

You can't really be unfair to the one you love. Don't take love for granted, else you will be stranded in the rain with no shelter. It will be difficult to distinguish rain drops and tears.

Creating a relationship, constructing a thought of togetherness, future of bonding is the first step towards the magic of love in life, you are in a different world when you are with your love there is no question, no concern, no reason, no consequence, no future, no past, just the warmth of the moment.

looking back... learning... and moving ahead...

soon I'l be 24!
Well there's a lot that comes to my mind when I look back at the good, bad and the ugly of my life!
I still remember getting all the awards... all d low scores... failure, success, shortcuts and the hard nights before some impt. exam or a game!
Life takes you through all the shades... the lightest of all is the childhood... you don't know the dark realities... Anything would leave a mark and all you care about is you!
School and College rock!
The best days of your life just pass by before you realize...
One fine day you wake up and you don't have 2 rush for the class or finish any assignments...
Life gets darker henceforth... You always have a reason not to have fun not to be yourself... not to do something you would have if you could have because you should have... it all gets so complicated with work, family, love, kids, friends that you don't have a second to spare for yourself...
You cant hit the gym, you cant ride a bike on a bright sunny day... you cant get drunk with friends... what is life getting to... you never wanted this...
Ultimately it gets so dark that one day you'd open your eyes and you wont see nethin!
Your dead and the darkness will never end!
Live for the moment...

Yeah easier said than done!

You were born with no responsibilities you die with none but in the process you acquire a lot of em...
Success has to be certified... you need to be successful to the world... its the world who decides your happiness... no1 really cares what you go through how you survive, how you reach where you are or where you would be...
Coming from a conservative middle class family I've seen it all...
but is it really worth loosing out on everything in search for a better tomorrow... what about the today!!
where am I gonna be is not in my hand but where I am should have been an easier choice!

wats wid d world!!

What's wrong wid d world??
Why doesn't no one have to do anything with what some1 else goes thru?
The world is having the worst time financially and there is turmoil in the financial districts all across with great minds loosing jobs...
But what no1 sees is the amount of money we will end up loosing due to pressing the panic button b4 required... Companies I come across as still in profit are terminating people in advance just to go with the flow...
No1 has an opinion of weight on the amount of money being drained on the Armed forces and when I see an Airforce Jet flying for a drill or for some avoidable cause it appears just like a bundle of tax payer's money being burned 4 fuel!
Sometimes I feel as though its all in the mindset, people who have everything can't be satisfied and people who dont have anything can't be motivated... the rich keep getting richer and the poor...

Panic and the way to deal with it... Patience...

You find yourself in a situation not planned or expected and just panic and spoil everything for everyone... what really comes out of it is that you feel you should have just been a bit more patient and not pressed the panic button that quick!

Imagine billions of people panicking and making life hell for trillions and zillions...

Its not really the worst time economically by itself... we have made it the worst!

Smarter people who are not really that smart have taken some really foolish decisions and here we are with a a situation where panic is what every1 is doing and adding on...

The government is not doing no magic...

What do you think can throwing in money would help...

The so called stimulus package and the strings attached to it are still not proving to anyone what on earth was thought of before billions were thrown in the market...

Is that money not important???

It was this unthoughtful utilization of resources and economically important money that caused the recession to occur. Basically being repeated the unthoughtful pushing inn of high volumes of money is only going to worsen things.

The leaders should visualize before taking the final resort the consequences in the long run...

What is being neglected is that not only the high end or people who have lost jobs are panicking but also the people still not affected are panicking and putting there money in the cycle indirectly and at the end of the day people saving, spending or eating there money would pile up the problems and the boat would eventually sink when it cant hold no more.

I dread this and its consequences not only USA but the world on a whole.

The government should not panic... and throw out the growth factors...

Stopping international workers and limiting the moderate elements of the basic structure of a successful time and not to visualize what more that might bring.

How would the services be replaced if the better world is visualized and how bad you think the decision of cutting the work force is... if you don't do your work the normal or the best way you do it then how would you get the best out?

The psychology behind this might be only of hatred??
or is it just finding a reason to take out men and women who have put in all they could for sitting at home if the previous government and leaders took the wrong decisions...

In the name of cost cutting and covering up the previous expenditures and high wastage of money and why the tax payers money was given as bonuses...

Human development is what is needed but I don't think it can happen,

Collapse is what would and I just hope some miracle can save us from this.

Instead of recognition if you fire your employees I don't think a decision like it can be called anything but premature.

99% people don't know the problem and finding the solution is totally outta the equation.

I am amazed to think of the additional fiscal deficit an investment of the billions of dollars being invested to the same bankers who messed it all up again would cost...

The stimulus front would unfold soon and I guess the unemployment is killing and recovery efforts no one knows to face the difficult days and if the government spends more than they get revenue of would squeeze any reserves that we have.

Tax cuts also appear as a step to complete the joke!!

A post crisis world is what I foresee where the dominance of USA would be no more and there is enough fiction I have read about this to say about this but the biggest issue would be how the developing world would be if the developed countries crash and rethinking of the economy and the economic institution and making it self correcting is becoming all the more necessary.

Being intelligent than stupid would really help and a lil patience would be great!!

Gandhgiri...

He is still alive with his ideologies!

Satya(Truth), Ahimsa(Non Violence)and Satyagrah(resistance to tyranny through mass civil disobedience)pioneered by him are in my opinion the only answer to the problems of peace and harmony the world is facing...

Gandhi influenced important leaders and political movements.

He is in my view not only the father of the (Indian)nation but the world and which is why he is recognized and respected the world over.

Leaders of the civil rights movement in the United States, including Martin Luther King and James Lawson, drew from the writings of Gandhi in the development of their own theories about non-violence.

Anti-apartheid activist and former President of South Africa, Nelson Mandela, was inspired by Gandhi. Others include Khan Abdul Ghaffar Khan, Steve Biko, Aung San Suu Kyi and Philippine opposition leader during the dictatorship of Ferdinand Marcos, Benigno Aquino, Jr.

Gandhi's life and teachings inspired many who specifically referred to Gandhi as their mentor or who dedicated their lives to spreading Gandhi's ideas.

In addition, the British musician John Lennon referred to Gandhi when discussing his views on non-violence.
At the Cannes Lions International Advertising Festival in 2007, former U.S. Vice-President and environmentalist Al Gore spoke of Gandhi's influence on him.

The President of the United States of America, Barack Obama, sees Mahatma Gandhi as an inspiration and has a portrait of the "apostle of peace" in his office to remind him that ordinary people can do extraordinary things. He says "In my life, I have always looked to Mahatma Gandhi as an inspiration, because he embodies the kind of transformational change that can be made when ordinary people come together to do extraordinary things". "That is why his portrait hangs in my Senate office; to remind me that real results will not just come from Washington, they will come from the people" he adds.

It took a movie on him to get the Indian masses revive his ideologies and the youth pretends to be modern and western but still believe in his teachings. Those who do not or are either unaware or ignorant should just enlighten themselves with baapu's thoughts and teachings and implement them in and around themselves to find how much they would help like they have helped me...

Gandhigiri Rocks!!!

Slumdog Millionare!

It has made us all proud that Indian cinema is getting recognition on the global stage and sweeping almost all prestigious awards across earth is not a small feat. But the only thing that nettles me is that the crew of the ship was Indian but the captain and the owner of the cruise were brits...

Taking no credit away from Danny Boyle the director of the film and the global production houses who made this possible I would have been really happy if some1 from India depicted India be it the poor India, the growing India or my India but I am really at peace that no credit was taken away from the lowest possible people who made this a Magnum Opus!

Watching all the cast and crew of the movie at Kodak theater was gr8 and watching them taking the golden trophies and being recognized was even better.

This film has got accolades from evry1 around the globe for the sole reason that we all can identify with it. The story of a slum kid making it big and all the love angle attached with it is definitely not a new plot but as the way the story has been told is awesome and everything about it just adds to the perfection of the movie.

The story of Jamal Malik, an 18 year-old orphan from the slums of Mumbai, who is about to experience the biggest day of his life. With the whole nation watching, he is just one question away from winning a staggering 20 million rupees on India's "Who Wants To Be A Millionaire?" But when the show breaks for the night, police arrest him on suspicion of cheating; how could a street kid know so much? Desperate to prove his innocence, Jamal tells the story of his life in the slum where he and his brother grew up, of their adventures together on the road, of vicious encounters with local gangs, and of Latika, the girl he loved and lost.

Each chapter of his story reveals the key to the answer to one of the game show's questions. Each chapter of Jamal's increasingly layered story reveals where he learned the answers to the show's seemingly impossible quizzes. But one question remains a mystery: what is this young man with no apparent desire for riches really doing on the game show? When the new day dawns and Jamal returns to answer the final question, the Inspector and sixty million viewers are about to find out. At the heart of its storytelling lies the question of how anyone comes to know the things they know about life and love.

The masala of an Indian curry added by a foreign chef is the twist in the tale, the gangsters, the dances, the swearing/foul slum language used makes it a must have DVD and qualify it as a feel good, inspirational, family and an OSCAR WINNING movie...

U choose wat U believe in!

With the all the options we get are we certain the one we chose is gonna bring the best results to us?

At every turn in life we come across we certain situations where we need to choose a path, an option, something from the rest of the possibilities.

You choose what you believe in an give it all you got no matter what comes in between you and your success.

As a kid you want to be a sports star, want to join the army, wanna be in space and change the world. When we grow up, mature see the world and experience stuff we know what is possible, whats in the range, where can we reach and where can we end.

It is when we believe in something that we do it, its human tendency. So the belief from within is basically the only thing that encourages us to do something and it is the belief in ourselves that we can complete what we ought to do that we conquer the mountains of difficulties and reach the peaks of success.

Choosing an option is as easy as playing cards, but making the best out of it and coming out happy is as difficult as to fly.

So be it career, love or life "U choose wat U believe in!" and you better win the game you think you play the best.

What next???

Who knowzzz....










How can any one guess what his action, which may even be a consequence of someone else doing something else, cause...
Nothing is certain...
No-one is safe, but what's gonna happen next?
All the planning, all the hopes, all the expectations fall apart...
All you can do is just be a mere spectator...
All you think what should I do next...
But what can't be thought of is the change that awaits...
Will it bring good, bad or worse with it no one knows, all we can do our bit and wait to be blessed or cursed by the consequences of our NEXT step!
This doesn't stop me atleast from trying my luck, to make a life and to give it my best shot to reach where I wanna...
Only time has the power to withhold the fruit of our hard work, is it sweet or sour... only time would tell...
But as my dad would aptly quote: "An attempt may be a failure, but a failure to attempt is always a failure".

GOD BLESS...

“Yeah! So??”

It is the worst time in the history to be looking for a job!
It is in-fact an even difficult time to be lonely and to be surviving on hope...
Yeah?
so???
I did not project it or foresee this happening when I set my goals towards higher education and who would have known that I would be ending up with only hope of something good when I set foot towards my ambitions...
What good am I really worth...
You have Good qualifications?
Yeah...
You have decent experience?
Yeah...
So??
does nethin make a difference...
what did I gain...
No-one on earth can really do nothing...
Everyone was sent on earth with some intention... every1 has a role to play
I hope I get to know mine soon enough, I haven't done much other than giving tension and problems to people I know... be it my family or my girl friend.
I just hope I can bring some good to every1 who is affected by me!
What's in my hand?
what good have I brought or can bring to this world??
I wish I could make a difference not only for myself but for everyone who deserves to be in a better state, but its not my cup of tea.
All the Political Poker thats being played the world around... is it worth it...
No...
but can anyone do anything about it...
so...
All the money that goes into the useless wars... never finishing fights, reasons for these fights become irrelevant, people responsible become extinct but the war goes on. And the loss of men, machines and money finally brings more such wars...
I am amidst a war too... everyone is... the fight for a good life...
I am in the land of opportunities... with no opportunity... people here in the United States are loosing jobs every second.
The war in the middle east was started with a notion of making life better... has it really done so for anyone... I just pray they don't find another reason to do good...

The latest on the remedies from the white house is a bottle of shock...
The government is giving out some piece of our money... the Tax payer's money to companies faking bankruptcy with a condition not to hire people on H1 or people from different countries...
do we not pay any tax??
I believe if there was one hour every day that international's here in US stop doing what they do. It would take just two days for the US economy to go from bad to extinct...
All would have been merrier had people been efficient in what they need to do. Instead of playing the blame game and holding internationals by the neck and choking them to death if there is less money spent on the campaigning, the wars, the million dollar elections, the trillion dollar lifestyles and bailouts, had there been an intelligent rescue plan it would have been worth the wait...

Looking Back!

"I want to do what I really want to do"...
If that was possible though...

I sometimes feel as I was a part of a story written somewhere, known to most except my own self and if I was doing something or everything for someone or something.

I feel as if I can never raise myself to normality whenever my thoughts are scattered, but I do always rise and my story never stops to unfold, no not even for me.

I wonder what if I knew what would be in-store in the next chapter or in the next page of the book of my life, what if I knew every decision or step I took was right or wrong. But then what good would good be if there was no bad, there would be no happiness if no1's sad...

When I was young the only thing that gave me happiness was to dip a cookie in milk and bite it before it fell into the glass of hot milk. I wonder how life would've been if I just needed to do what I really wanna do, fool around with cookies, fly a kite from the rooftop, play all day long. What if I knew who I was.

I wish life would have been simple, I neva had 2 compromise something for something. I wish I never had 2 learn, study and pretend, if only someone could change the definition of success and earth was content living would have been living.

The only thing one needs, works for and dies in the dream of obtaining is happiness and I have never seen ne1 who is content with what is available or what is with you.

I wish I had magical powers, I just wish I could make some difference to someone...

Time never stops for anyone but why is it that I never feel it passing by me, waving at me and signaling to me telling me to make sure I do something that I really wanna do...

"I want to do what I really want to do"...
If that was possible though...

SuperBowl Sunday!

It was the biggest day of the year for football fans all-over America and for some1 like me it would have been much better had I been in Kansas City for one extra week watching d game wid friends...

It was a tremendous game and a great atmosphere that kept me glued to my TV on the 1st of February 2009 when the 2 champions Arizona Cardinals played the Pittsburgh Steelers...

I wish I was there among the people in Tampa who spent thousands of dollars for that price seat to witness this peace of history...

Super Bowl 43 was no less than the world cup final if not more in terms of viewership or interests. Football here is more so like cricket back home. Super Bowl sunday is usually a day when friends gather at each other's home or at a bar and watch the game together no matter who they want 2 win or even if they don't wanna watch the game its a time for fun. Where chicken wings, dips, nachos and beer are consumed more than anytime of the year, its a time for everyone to take a break and watch the last game of the football season.

Now coming to my experience, I have been following football since last year and a half partly because I used to score keep to make some money and also it was essential to follow a sport atleast to talk to someone about something...
every1 loves football and superbowl in one way or another...
so after a down to the last minute game last year it was no different this year and it must have broken the hearts of all Cardinal fans when Ben Roethlisberger or Big Ben threw that touchdown pass to Holmes for a last minute touchdown making it almost impossible to Arizona to get their hands on the trophy!

Although no1 including me expected these two teams 2 reach this far but as far as I knw this year no1 played that great... I like both the QB's but Warner had all odds against him so he was higher on my list...

Anyways it was one of the closest and the toughest super bowl game and every1 including me who witnessed the ups and downs of this 1 is still thinking and talking about it.

Lets c once again howz life gonna be post superbowl ;)

No regrets...

I have officially taken a step finally towards making a career and moved out of Kansas city, I left Kansas City early morning on 26th January 2009 and drove my way into Bloomington, Illinois. Believe me its atleast 10F colder and its rarely a pleasant day here.
I have decided to shift from my focus of study "Electrical Engineering" and move into IT and to be precise to learn and specialize in IBM Rational. Well as of now I know pretty minimal about it but in a layman's terminology it is a version control tool that can provide me employment opportunities.
It was great to be at Kansas City and having spent over an year it was like home but just the fact that I do not have much time on hand before I apply for a visa to stay here so Bloomington, IL is my new hide out (I say hide out because I am in seriously in hibernation mode, its rare that I go out: 1. I don't know anyone and 2. Its freakin cold outside)

The journey 2 Bloomington was 6hrs 20Mins and 2 red bulls, and 1 double shot coffee later I was here in the much colder, whiter city and with no1 I knew 2 be seen... it surely was cold!

Surviving a life threatening accident due to a snowy patch on d way here was a story in itself... I'll put some more light on that in future posts but trust me avoid driving with snow in the air ;)

to be or not 2 be

This post is the first of many but its a summary of what all I have seen and been through in these 23 years of a NORMAL life I have led.
Right now I am in Kansas City, Missouri USA and have just finished my Master's in Electrical Engineering(boring???) from UMKC n wat not... but before I go any further I guess you should know where I started to end up here.
Born in New Delhi on the 3rd of November 1985, I lived my early childhood in a small historical neighborhood of Mehrauli right next to the famous Qutub Minar. Not many expected a boy from that side of the world to reach even half way where I have but I credit every single bit of it to my parents who took all the wise decisions and I owe everything I have to them.
After 6 years of my early childhood we moved to west delhi and things changed for everyone in our family. I went to D.A.V public school and my foundation was laid over there. Although I wasn't extra-ordinary in academics but I did manage and struggle my way through all the EXAMS life threw my way...
I was always more into cricket and thaikwondo all through out my life. Cricket especially comes in the top 3 things I'd do anything for. Be it exam time or whatever I have never missed playing or watching a game on offer. I have enjoyed it so can't help it ;)
I played cricket on every level possible on the streets, for my school, for my college, for my University, for my district, for my state, and for myself and I do not regret it that I did not make it big or realized a dream everyone among 100Million Indians have.
Lets not drift from me know... Cricket can get onto me sometimes... anyways so I was in New Delhi doing the same things I had since the last 15 years that Dad came in one day and told that we had to move to Hyderabad in the summer of 2000 and there we were with no friends no relatives no one in a new city(at least to me).
So meeting new friends, new teachers and learning a new language(Telugu) was tough but interesting so as usual I did manage through all of it...
I have a special spot in my memory for Hyderabad because I actually grew there, my family went back to New Delhi after almost 4 years and I was on my own to survive 4 years of my life in which I had to graduate my Bachelor's degree and also take care of everything related myself starting from bread and board to visiting a doctor when I met with an accident in 2006 every part of the memory brings back a smile when revisited. All the late night movies, biryani, night outs with friends, ragging and what not...
I can go on for quite a bit but lets save it for a later posting...
I have been here in the US for almost 2 years and trust me nothing has been easy even here...
all the roomie fights, uncooked food, last minute studies 4 comprehensive exams cricket, cars, part time jobs and all but the toughest part starts now finding a job after you are done with your studies and keep up to the various deadlines of USCIS and also the expectations of your family and friends...
God Help me through this...